All of our lives have been touched by suicide in some way. Whether it is a family member, friend, coworker, the media, or yourself. I have been given the gift to spread the word that anything is possible for anybody. Anyone can get past the thoughts of self-defeat and emptiness that can lead to suicide if we can start talking about it. I've found that reaching out for help from anyone and talking about my fears in swimming and life took some of the weight off my shoulders. It made me feel less alone. I prepared for my summer season and plowed through the winter blues with the help of the people I reached out to. I started to talk about what was going on in my life and that I didn't feel okay. That was key in my progress of self acceptance. So I took a chance. I entered a swim race in Cancun, Mexico that was way above my level and things turned out better than I could have ever expected. I won the Women's Division of the 10k. and stood on top of a podium, holding a huge first place trophy with at least 1,000 people in the crowd, in a foreign country, with "We Are The Champions" being played. It was a moment that I will never forget.